Somehow i know something will happen right after another month of Anniversary. And my prediction was so true that today, something has really really happened. Because of me, of course. It has been a 'cycle' to know that what is going on later. On every Anniversary, happy things may come and sad things may go off quickly. But after that day, sad things comes and happy things go. It sounds weird to everyone. It is hard to truly understand one person, but at least most personality??
And It goes like this.. This starts phone call, from him. The conversation about i'm i free or not, whether can i pei him go out or not.. it's really a last minute for a meet up with him because i have already 'booked' by kenny [quite long ago le].. Den he was like giving me attitude by just saying 'forget it' without even a bye, and den hang, so i ask him why through sms, and it slowly lends to why i have to say i'm being booked, as if he must book me every time i go out. i explain to him it is just a word to describe, not that i want him to do that.
Conflict 2, he sms and ask me whether cani sms chat with him, and of cause i said yes, but i end up giving him late reply[s], just because of the late reply, he send me this::
'I think we end here ba. If you dun feel like talking with me reply also dun have i think i not your cup of tea le hais.'"'If you still dun wan reply i take it as your answer is yes'
I really have no idea why he thinks this way.. it's because of late reply, and he can just say out such things, the 1st thing comes to my mind is i'm just a toy for him to play till he dun want, den he will throw. i really shouldn't have said that i'm free for sms chat. Giving fake promises can really hurt someone. he is definitely angry with me now.. Even if i say sorry, it wont help, it will just make it worse. he scolded me that the sorry i said was not from my heart, this sentencee really hurts me. Even if i say i not free, he will say that i dun miss him and all sort of stuff.
Conflict 3, whether can i meet up with him tml. Well this is really forcing but not ask. If he really wants me to meet up with him, den say it straight than keep asking ans asking to meet up. And he meeting up with another girl who take his no. from him. I felt so irritated when he said this.
And demanding that meet time must be at 1pm, it's actually ok, but what about my lunch?
as u can see, i'm those pig that wake up late for lunch. and if i must reach there by 1pm, i must get out of my house by 12.. not that i dun want. Is that i scared i'll be late for the meet up..
and the way his sms is somehow showing me attitude. i told him, but it end up worse. His disappointed, and blame himself keep saying his fault..
